My Heart is Heavy

We are all reeling from the shootings that happened on Friday in Newtown, CT.  I read updated articles and I still can't fathom the happenings and what these families are going through. 

When I first heard of the shootings and read that it was at an elementary school, my first thought was "God, I hope no children were hurt".  And when I received the updated breaking news alert and read that there were indeed children hurt and killed, my heart sank.   I had never felt sick to my stomach the way I did that day.  I knew that no matter how bad I felt, there were parents that were having to deal with losing their CHILD.  I can't even imagine the pain and the anguish they felt.  My stomach continued to churn.

I went back to my desk and played the press conference from the President and my first tears fell.  The emotion that he showed as a parent and not the President of the United States made me sob.  His words touched me and I could not contain myself.  It was after his press conference that I decided to look into the faces of these angels that were taken too soon from this earth.  I had been avoiding it because seeing them would make it all too real.  And when I did, my heart broke even more.

How could someone do this to innocent children who at no fault of their own were at the wrong place at the wrong time.  But when did our elementary schools become the proverbial "wrong place"?  Elementary school is where I made a lot of my favorite childhood memories and I hold them close to my heart.  This monster came and in an instant made this elementary school a place of traumatic and scary memories.  How dare he!

I would call myself a person of faith and I always go back to it when things like this happen.  And I am usually the one looking for the "silver lining" to every situation regardless of how horrible it is.  But this time...I'm at a loss.  I have no idea why this happened. I have no idea why these sweet angels were taken a week before Christmas. I have no idea why these parents and families are having to go through this.  But I do know that they are on my prayer list and from hundred of miles away, that's all I can do. I will continue to pray for the souls of these children (and adults) that were taken away. May they rest in peace.

Situations like this really do put life into perspective for me.  Sofia is only 3 years younger than most of the children that died on Friday and I can't imagine only having her with me for 3 more years.  We must enjoy every day like it is our last.  We must tell our loved ones every day how much we love them because life is so short and we really do not know how much time we have on this earth.  I hope that all of you hug your kids a little tighter, are a little nicer to your sister or brother, will not get as angry when the kids make a mess...because I promise you that the parents of those children would give anything to have to clean up that mess.

It's that time of year!

It's insane to think that the year is almost over and that Christmas is almost 3 weeks away.  They will arrive in opposite order but I so don't feel like re-writing that sentence! :)

So have you started Christmas shopping yet? I have purchased one gift and it doesn't even really count because it was less than $10...with tax!  I will blame Houston's weather on the fact that I am not in the Christmas spirit 100%.  It's like 80 degrees outside and hoochies are still wearing their shorts and flip flops!  I can't get in the mood of Christmas if people's ass cheeks are hanging out!!! Work with me Mother Nature....PLEASE!!!!

I have been listening to Christmas music since the 2nd week of November in hopes that would be help.  It isn't. But I'm still listening to it. I LOVE IT! Although the same songs come on every other song because let's be honest....how many versions of Rudolph are there? Not very many.

But tonight we are finally going to go and get our Christmas tree.  Sofia has been asking her daddy to go buy it for weeks and amazingly he's been trying to ignore her.  BUT we finally con viced him and we'll be shopping for that "perfect" tree tonight.  Wish us luck...it usually takes forever to agree!

I hope you aren't too far behind on shopping!  Let me know if you find any good deals!!

Is too much to ask for this kind of weather?!?!?!

I need some feedback!

One of the reasons I love my job is I work with some CRAZY ass people. They keep me entertained on a daily basis. With that said, today at lunch I had an interesting conversation with a co-worker.  We started talking about our habits at home and other things and the topic of "Lazy Sundays" came up.  I told her that there have been many a Sunday that I will look at the clock and it's 8pm and I look down and I still have my PJs on.  She looked at me with disgust! I thought she was going to throw up.  Thankfully, she didn't.

She said that she believes that staying in your PJs all day long breeds laziness.  I think she's INSANE!!  She says that she never, ever wears PJs all day and that she MUST take a shower before noon or she feels as though she's a failure.  She may not have said that but that's what I heard. :)

I know there has to be someone else out there that has stayed in thier pajamas ALL damn day!!! Because I have no shame in my game...I have SO done that.  I can't do it as much now because I have a child but I know that I used to do it alot when I was younger.  I don't see the big deal if your ass is going to be home ALL day and you don't have anything to do.  AND I don't understand why you would dirty more laundry just to impress the couch! She even wears make-up everyday. Even if she doesn't leave the house!  I think she's crazy!!!!!

So please, let me know your Lazy Sunday routines. I know there has to be some AWESOME people like me out there. :)

OH and before I forget. She also doesn't believe in naps.  I think she's an alien. Or we should banish her.  She's not a native Texan either.  That may be the real issue.  :)

Exactly my friend.

I'm a bad blogger!

I haven't written anything since June!!!! The last post was about my purse being stolen. I must have really been distraught to never write again. LOL!

My purse being stolen did suck but I'm over it. Well not really but whatever!!

Today is Tuesday, November 27. Which means that the year is almost over. I'm getting closer and closer to 33. Sofia passed her 3 year birthday and is on her way to 4. When did I become a 30 year old?!?!? I swear I was just crimping my hair and listening to New Kids on the Block like last week!!! And for the record, I refuse to call them NKOTB! Just I like I refuse to call Snoop Dog, Snoop Lion. But I digress....

Where was I? Anyway my point of this post is that I suck at blogging but I am going to try to be better. I really do love doing it and I get so happy when people make comments about it so again, I will try to be better.

Look for more posts this week! Happy Almost New Year!

I hate dieting.

I think dieting has to be the worst thing on earth. Like forreal.  WHY DOES FOOD MAKE YOU FAT???  I wish all salads tasted like greasy cheesy pizza.  I wish broccoli tasted like chocolate ice cream. I wish Dr. Depper had ZERO calories.

My point is, why do ALL things delicious make you look like a big fat cow?!??!?!  It's so not fair.

Well if anyone knows me, you know I don't look like Jennifer Lopez...more like her fat ass cousin. NO wait, she's Puerto Rican. I'm Mexican. And no it's not all the same! ANYWAY, my point is that if I were on Match.com, I would have to pick the "fat ass" box on the profile.   I have struggled with my weight since I was young. I was NEVER skinny...ever.  But as I look back at old pictures I think "damn, I was skinny!"  How's that for irony. 

So to help me with my weight loss journey, I made a bet with a co-worker.  Money is a great incentive!!!  And not to mention bragging rights!!  So we made a bet that whomever lost more weight by August 25 would win.  The loser pays the winner $2 for every pound lost.  I am proud to announce that I have lost 6 lbs.  I know in the grand scheme of things that's not worth writing a blog post about BUT it's progress and I'm proud!!!!

I've been using an App on my phone that is helping me track my calories. It's pretty nifty.  It helps me to decide what I can and should NOT be eating.  Do you know that the big breakfast from McDonald's has 1150 calories!?!??!?!?!  My daily ration is 1800. That is pretty damn scary.  But again, it's SO DAMN GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   I can even have a Dr. Pepper if I want...but I can't have anything else good to eat. But it's a nice trade off and it keeps me sort of in line.

I am not expecting a miracle in weight loss here. I know myself and will fall off the wagon and back on a few times before it's over but it's a start right?!?!?!

Check in on me later. Maybe the next time you see a picture of me, I WILL look like J-Lo! :D

I hate people. Not YOU but some...

On Monday I went to the grocery store to get a few things.  It was a quick trip that only cost me $50. Impressive huh?  I checked out like normal, put up my things, got Sofia situated in her car seat and we left.

When I got home, I went to get my purse and it wasn't where I normally put it. I thought it was odd so I got out and went to get it from the back.  That's the only other logical place I would have placed it.  When I didn't find it there, my entire body went warm with fear.  You know that feeling where you don't know whether you want to cry or scream or cry?  Well that's exactly how I felt.  It was awful.

After I realized my purse was not in my car, I raced back to the grocery store (that was 5 minutes away) and went back to where I was parked.  I figured I left my purse in the cart that I was using.  I was even a good American and put the cart in those parking spaces made specifically for carts. When I passed up the place I left the cart and saw that it was empty, my heart sank.  I went inside and asked if anyone turned in a purse. Nothing.  I searched the carts that were put up. Nothing.

I felt so defeated and so mad at the same time!!!!  I went home and told Boogie and busted into tears.  He had just bought that purse for me in February AND the matching wallet that was inside.  And for the record, Boogie is the cheapest person on earth and the fact that he spent more than $20 on a purse and wallet was/is a big deal!  I thought he was going to be super pissed but I'm glad he wasn't.  Tears usually help men be nicer...or at least not be a total jack-ass! :)

I went back to the store a second time and looked again and asked more people but my purse was gone.  After I had time to process everything, I realized that I did in fact put my purse in the back with the groceries.  When I went to put the cart in its place, I left the lift gate open. I can only assume that someone snatched it out of there as my back was turned.

And I KNOW...all the Datelines and 20/20 specials show us how easy it is for people to steal your things. And I've watched those and taken notes and thought to myself "how can people be so dumb?"  Well...I'm now in that list of "dumb people".  I wonder if Dateline will run a story on me?

And for all you women out there, you know that our purses are our entire lives!  Everything was in there!!! My bank cards, a check book, MY BRAND NEW PASSPORT, MY PHONE!!!  I could go on and on...you get the picture.  I was so sad the next day when I literally had nothing to take with me but my keys. HOW DEPRESSING!!!!!!!

BUT...things could have been a lot worse.  Whomever took my purse could have accosted me to try to get it and I'm so thankful and blessed that didn't happen.  AND I really hope and pray that whoever took it needed those things more than me.  That's how I sleep at night. BUT I also believe in Kharma...and we all know she's a bitch!

Does this mean I'm cool?

It's finally happened.  I went to the dark side.  I now own an Apple product.  What is this world coming to?  And more importantly..does this make me cool?

I am now the proud owner of the iPhone 4s...the white one. I figured since my name means White...I should pay homage.  Thank god my name doesn't mean neon green!

I will admit when I ordered it I was sort of kinda really excited.  Oh, who am I kidding? I was jumping up and down with joy. Not literally though. That would take too much work!  I ordered the phone on Monday and it was here on Wednesday.  Thank you Jesus for over-night shipping!!

When we finally got it to work, I was so excited! And it's amazing how much people notice because almost everyone that came in my office said "You got a new phone?"  I guess people are more nosey than they thought! :)

I am like a 5 year old and cannot put this phone down.  I keep looking for apps to add to it.  I keep asking Siri to tell me a joke and she won't. Rude.  She's much nicer to John Malkovich in that commercial. Bitch.  But don't tell her I said that because she sets my alarm!

I know in the next couple of weeks and months I will get to know my iPhone better. For all of you seasoned iPhone owners, give me some tips!!!! I'm brand new to this party.

This is what Whitey looks like. :)