Since September 11, 2001, I have always been afraid of something ELSE happening. And after each year that passes I think to myself "maybe we are finally done with being scared!" And then the bombings at the Boston Marathon happened. My heart always drops when I read things like that. I got a Breaking News email that two bombs went off and I knew it was not going to be good. And when things like this happen, I become OBSESSED with reading updates. I want to look at every picture regardless of how awful they are. For whatever reason, I want to be as informed as possible. And there are times when I just stop reading and feel incredibly sad.
The world we live in makes me sad for Sofia. I can only pray that when she gets older things will have calmed down. They say history repeats itself. I can only hope that we can go back to the days where we don't have to worry about some tragic thing happening at a public event. Every time I am somewhere like the Houston Rodeo, a Houston Texans game, a parade...I think "what if someone bombs us?" What an awful way to live!! It doesn't stop me from going to these places but it's always in the back of my mind. I don't fly often but when I do, I think "what if someone on here wants to kill me?" When I'm in traffic and on a big bridge I think "what if someone has placed a bomb underneath this thing and it goes off and I die?" I know a lot of these thoughts are just paranoia and a product of the times I am living in but it's hard to turn off. I pray that my children don't have to live like this. I pray that somehow the BAD people GO AWAY! That's the eternal 5 year old in me that thinks that way...unfortunately, the 33 year old knows that it's not that easy. But I will still hold on to that 5 year old way of thinking.
I pray for the families that are waking up this morning knowing that they will never see their loved ones again. I am praying for the parents of that precious 8 year old boy that was taken from this earth way too soon. I am praying for all those affected and I hope that some how they find ways to cope with this awful tragedy. And I also pray for the people that are responsible. May God have mercy on your soul.